Tuesday, November 3, 2009


I hate searching for motivation to do something. I hate not being able to sit down and focus solely on one given task. Right now that task is coding. In the morning that task will be getting up to run. Lately I've been struggling to be productive or to get anything done. I've been telling myself I need to get up and run to keep in shape for soccer. I need to start on my homework earlier so I'm not up at the last minute working on it. These are things I need to do to get better at things I like to do.

I love playing soccer. I love programming. Why can't I get myself to practice them? I know that practicing is the only way to get better at anything. I know it's the only way to get to the level I want to be at. Why is it so hard for me to do then? Why am I so easily distracted? I know I need the practice and every day that goes by is another one lost to me.

I waste time. I waste a lot of time. I don't consider this blog post a waste of time, because I need something to get my juices flowing and this is helping me. Getting started is the hardest part of any task. Whether it's getting up in the morning and putting my running shoes on, or typing the first lines of my next program. Getting started is always the hardest part.

Luckily once the rock starts moving it gains momentum. So I need to continue to remind myself of my goals and ambitions so that I can get my momentum going. Practice is the only way to get good, and reading blogs can only help me so much...